Memories, Mysteries

We're turning into memories,

come, lay next to me.

I'll tell you what we were,

everything we used to be.

I'll start with your forehead right off to the left,

directly in front of where your mind's kept.

I'll kiss it, remind you softly and slowly,

pulling out feelings and memories wholly.

I'll whisper in your ears everything you knew then,

when I promised and you promised that there'd be no end.

I can see the end now and promises evaporate,

everytime I see you I'm reminded why I hate to hate.

And as of late, I can't imagine why I even had hope,

because for us to be in love you'd have to untie the rope.

See you're choked and bound to everything inside of you,

and baby if I knew you then I wouldn't still want to.

But back to the memories, the past in the present,

I kiss you on the lips, they're soft and decadent.

I remember how I wondered why I'd never felt this before,

the physicalities had me blind, begging to see more.

Your soft cheeks are reminiscent of words you never meant,

and every soft inch of brown skin is relevant.

Relevant to the now, the present, the here,

and you're reminded of why I'm whispering in your ear.

I've never had a goodbye, this sweet, this mean,

I'll leave now, never knowing if you're my dream.

I'll hate you in secrecy, bathe in my stupidity,

I'll eat in my misery, sleep in my mystery.

My mystery is you, and you have no clue,

but I'll pass right through, 'cause all dreams can't come true.

Confusion

I am alone in this. Confusion is my best friend and my worst enemy. You come to me in my thoughts, you could be in my dreams for all I know. Just one more time. Just one more kiss. Just one more soft touch, one more grip of the hips, licking of the lips. One last soft whisper in the ear, one last taste of my flesh, one last tender tug at my breast. Then will I be okay? Then will I be friends with confusion for good? Is that even possible?
Sometimes I hate you and you have no clue. That part of you is slipping into memory, and from there, you cannot escape. I blame myself wholeheartedly. You being oblivious is good and bad. My choices don't feel like choices anymore. I'll just let you slip away, into memory.

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See, I thought I knew what I know, I don't.
If you think you'll ever find me out, you won't.
If I ever get into my head, I'll choke.
And neither of us will be able to see through, the smoke.
But against my own advice I move to the top.
The top of my head where the fire doesn't stop.
I push through the burnt, the broken, the charred.
My lungs get heavy and my body gets scarred.
I'm still moving, so fast, through the flames.
I push past memories, faces, names.
Catch me, catch me, catch me if you can.
I'm so far ahead, you can't see me, man.
I didn't take my own advice but I bet you wish you had.
I can hear it in your swift steps, you're running, you're mad.
Too late though, I made it, I beat you there.
I'm chillin' in my brain breathing this smoky air.
By the time you reach me I don't even care.
I made sure everything burned cause you don't belong there.
You don't belong here, you're too big, you're too much.
I can't fit no other thoughts because you took them all up.
Go away, exit, close the fucking door.
Didn't you hear? Love don't live here no more..

I am waiting to feel you touch me, breathing so quietly. Your fingers are warm and so is your breath on my skin. We kiss, intertwine. Your skin is smooth and taut and I want to see it all, I want to learn it. I want to kiss it all, I want to taste it. But you want the same thing,and my body is under yours. You weigh more, your kisses weigh more and I'm trapped, but it's enjoyable as you taste my skin, as you learn my body. You are on a hunt for noise, when you find one, you celebrate with your tongue. I am sprawled like an insect, limbs limp with pleasure, and muscles stiff with anticipation. Then you take more of me, I arch and I call out. You are looking at my body move, I am looking at yours, your eyes, the sweat forming on your brow, your mouth, forming silent praises. Time passes and we meet our peaks, we sink back down into our valley. We never stop touching, even as we drift into sleep. And right before I slip under I realize something; you are every place I've ever wanted to be.