Paralyzing

You want to know what it feels like when you want to tell someone you love them, but you're unsure?
It feels like keeping a deadly fucking secret that could end the world. It's paralyzing. Your fingers wanna type it and your lips wanna say it. And then your head screams that it's been however long, and that its completely crazy. Oh, but when you say it... That feeling is so incredible. It's beautiful feeling that person's breath on your ear, whispering to you that they love you. They're there. They're staying and they're gonna love you for as long as possible. When he said it to me, when I heard his voice, and I saw his lips move, and I looked at his eyes, I knew. I don't care how long it's been.
Yet still, there are so many more feelings. I feel scared to give myself again. I feel like since we're in deep early, we could be out early. But our story is fast. Our love is new. We're good with each other. I smile with him, I laugh with him, I trust him more everyday. We don't stop talking unless we're asleep. He is my favorite everything. Ever since I started talking to him, learning him, I've been falling for him. I wonder all the time how he thinks I'm so great? I wonder constantly why he wants me?
But he is my love. His happiness is my happiness. His eyes and lips and nose are my favorite parts. His skin, his whole body, his mind, they are mine to explore. He is my love. He is my perfect.