Decision

The time has come to make a decision. I have loved him for so long, it feels. But our hearts are far away as we lay together, side by side, no longer touching. I gently turn to face him, and the peace on his face as he sleep fools me, if only for a moment. I gently run my hand across his chest, and he reaches to take it into his, and slowly opens his eyes. We don't really speak, I just kiss him instead. We intertwine like well acquainted vines, so used to wrapping around each other. We move together like waves, gently pushing against the beach. We are so very used to this, and yet as his tongue crosses that line, and finds it's way into me, something is different. I am feeling new things about him, I am making new noises, he's not a stranger but he's something else. And then he's in me, and I just know this is not the man I loved. I have never been to this place before, I have never laid in this bed, I am so very lost in this sea of pleasure. It feels so new that it feels amazing. I cannot tell good from bad, I cannot speak clear English, I can't even tell whether I want this or I don't.
Now I'm coming, and he's coming, and we're collapsing in a heap of limbs and confusion. I somehow bring myself back down to sanity, and when I look at you, you have become someone else. I love you like I have never loved. I need you like I have never needed. I feel you in a way I've never felt. I can't turn away from your eyes. Eventually we sleep. Every day after this night will never be the same, the love won't be the same, I won't be the same. The decision has been made. Forever.